I wish I never made the first scratch on my arm. I never understood how someone could find harming one’s self so addicting, but I think I’m starting to get it now. And I hate myself for thinking I could control myself and that I thought scratching would look better and easier to cover up than cuts. I’ve only done it a few times, and part of me hates how bad it looks on my arms and that I’ve resorted to this, but then there is something about it that is also so appealing. But the biggest thing I fear about it is if (or when) my family and friends notice the marks because they are pretty noticeable to me. Need to find some alternative before I get addicted and ruin my arms.